Are Memories Real? Proof #2 – Emotions
One of the strongest proofs that the abuse memories are real is the emotions that accompany the memory. When the abuse was so severe the person had to split away from their mainstream of consciousness, they were able to form another part that could be outside the body in some way to escape the brunt of the suffering. The part that remained and went through the torture is still inside the person even when the abuse happened many years ago. The part who “left” the body momentarily is still there also and is able to tell what happened.
During ministry when the dissociated parts come up into the conscious mind to tell what happened, the emotions at the time of the abuse are often still there. The person may express these emotions in many different ways such as screaming, trembling, crying, dry heaves or even vomiting. I’ve even seen people try to run away from the memory as though if they left the room physically, they could get away from the pain of the memory. One woman actually crawled under my desk trying to get away from the pain of the memory. Sometimes we need to gently restrain them although they can be so strong that gentleness sometimes needs to be strengthened to forcefulness especially when demons manifest in them.
I once read a book by a well-known author of books on deliverance who said that if a person tries to leave the room during ministry, just let them go and they’ll come back. That is absolutely not true when you are dealing with satanic ritual abuse. Demons can take over a person’s body and cause them to run out into traffic where they would be severely injured or even killed. In some of these cases, I have seen the supernatural of God take over where the person tries to get up out of their chair but absolutely cannot. They may tell the entity holding them to let go, but it won’t and in their chair they remain until the ministry can take place. I honestly believe angels often assist us in this ministry.
There was a very dear woman I ministered to who was MK Ultra abused and whose rapes began at birth. (The Satanist perpetrators will cut open a baby girl’s vagina with a hot knife (no anesthesia used) and begin inserting their fingers into her even when she is a tiny newborn. Before she is even two years of age they are able to rape her.) This precious woman had an evil father, seven uncles and three brothers all of whom raped her multiple times. The abuse was not just at home because she was taken to high places of government in the United States and foreign countries where she was tortured and sexually abused all her life—until God brought us together.
As a result of all this abuse from the hands of men, she was terrified of men (once she had had enough memories to know what had happened to her and why she was diagnosed schizophrenic and bipolar). This was a huge problem because she was a married woman and had a teenage son. The Lord indicated she was to stay with me and my husband, who is her pastor and whom she trusts, for a few weeks to work through her fear of men. The Lord said he would put all the emotions connected with this fear behind a door. Every day he would open the door for a few minutes to allow some of the fear to come out and then he would close it again for the day.
This is what we did. When the fear was coming out, she would hold onto me and cry, tremble and even scream. It was horrendous. This happened every day. Finally the day came when the emotions connected with the fear of men were dealt with and she was able to go back home to her family.
Emotions of this magnitude are absolute proof that what happened happened. I have seen these emotions come up with memories in many people. None of them are good enough actors to be making this up. If they are acting, they deserve an academy award for their performances!
It is hard for the average person to mentally grasp how cruel and totally depraved human beings can be, but it is time to wake up and begin to acknowledge the reality of this fact. The Holy Spirit was not being facetious when he had Jeremiah write that “The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked…” We need to know this in order to understand and love the abused among us and also to know how to protect our own children. Pedophiles and Satanists have infiltrated our churches. You can only know them by the Spirit. We must pray always and seek God in all things.